Today is Tuesday 25th September, yesterday and for the past week my emotions have been practically choking me.
Today I feel all the tears are clutching at my chest and throat, asking for an audience of one, just me.
The need they have to fall freely down my face with the saltiness of sea water spray on a windy day.
Do I keep this inner storm calm and keep occupied? Do I sit and quietly allow this quiet bubbling waterfall its freedom?
I feel the need for this to be released, each day over the past week I have for no apparent reason, burst into tears, I have been ‘brilliant’ as my counselling coach applauded me the other day!
As you may not understand I will do my best in an endeavour to explain my plight.
I am learning to cry! Do you know how to cry without thought or reason why?
I am learning to grieve! Do you know how to go through it with sadness but happiness in heart to celebrate the person you are mourning for?
I am learning to be me! Do you know what its like to be me? I am saying No doing what is right for me.
I am learning to use my gut instinct. Do you follow your gut instinct? I am beginning to feel liberated and sure.
I am learning to understand and empathise with myself! Do you know how to take care of me? I do I start by being gentle with myself, by showing love to me and nurture my soul, to experience only the goodness in my life.
Do you know I am becoming who I was and who I am today through my true learning of what I want, but also how to meet my needs.
My needs will come and my wants will follow on after, I will be given only want I can handle I know this to be true.
My heart is heavy with the balloon of emotion, I am learning to be compassionate with myself and realise that I too need to be extremely patient with my soul, it needs to release my past hurts and traumas and move on from and forward to brighter days.
I am blessed that I am a spiritual woman and knowing what I have gives me the strength and faith to know I can offer more of who I am as the days go by.
Remember we all need compassion and love but most of all patience to see each day through with hopefully a lesson learned.
Be blessed that we are here learning more as we ever thought possible.
Love and light always.
