I received a small message on my guest book a few days ago and I would like to try to answer the question.
‘Why if my heart is full of love is it also full of sadness at the same time’’
Well I will try to answer with my own knowledge on this type of feeling.
Having a heart full of love to give is so true to me, I love to offer what I can to people and to those closest to me.
Sometimes it’s not always returned the same way; looking at the whole situation on love I see it like this:
When you are true to your self and know how good somebody can be towards you that is when you are viewing the other person as yourself.
Knowing that love is the only true acknowledgement of what is good and compassionate inside our souls.
I fell in love and I know people say that it’s not meant to hurt when you are in love, mmm right!
Love has ever other emotion tied to it like a big massive bunch of balloons on strings!
Each emotion coming in different guises depending on what context we look at love. For romantic and relationship love this starts with the initial fear factor, do I say yes to going out with the guy who makes my heart scream with delight and wishes to explode, or do I say no and keep him at arm’s length because I don’t really know him. Taking the risk of love or being hurt by it demands a great deal of self sacrifice and faith.
Faith that it’s okay if you get let down, that doesn’t mean you have not tried, that doesn’t mean you unable to try again.
The next emotion attached to romantic love is intimacy the kissing the holding hands and the passion when two people trust each other enough to share that next step, again a leap of faith.
The next is when sometimes the person who you have fallen head over heals for begins to sit back and become complacent, ‘oh I am here’ and I have what I want so I don’t have to ‘try’ anymore.
This is when the sadness comes to mind, because the other person is then left not knowing what happened to the person they fell in love with, and decides to go out looking for something else instead of communicating with the one person that would give them an answer. Or the complacency comes from ‘oh well we are together now that means I can say what I like’ and this in turn brings about disrespect of each other and there are no boundaries set, there is more miscommunication.
That is just one side of love and yet these are the tests we go through some times in our lives to get where we are going.
I also feel the love of my children, this is a ‘mother’s love’ this is an inexplicable love that is only experienced when you see the first smile hear the first cries.
It’s watching your children grown from infants to toddlers and enjoys all the naughtiness and playfulness that comes with a child’s innocence and growth.
Then the proud moment of seeing your children become an adult and still this love can be heartbreaking as then you see the character and watch them find their first love, their first heartbreak, their first ever betrayal by a friend.
You want to take all their pain and keep it from them but they too have to learn, this is the hurt you feel because you have to watch them pick themselves up and start again.
The one love that escapes is unrequited love, the love that is never returned the love that is held deep inside and only shown to your closest friends for they have seen you in tears watched you ache as the man you love walks down the road with a different woman or shows up at a party with a supposed friend!
This love however never goes unnoticed it’s a love that will last eternally.
The love that also feels unrequited to me as a person is that love of another family member, if you have fought all your life for approval of one person this is a loosing battle. The love you search is one you need to look deep within you, deep with in your soul.
Having love with a friend is another kind of love, this is the most unconditional love I know, you are not judged, condemned. You are given their opinions because they know you inside out, the friend can say if you look like poop when you are about to see your ex, the friend will not let you beat yourself up if you have been berated by somebody you don’t like!
This also has its heart aches too. A so called friend can betray you and can say one thing and do another! The friend can then kick you even further when you are down by betraying you even further by flaunting their betrayal in your face.
With that kind of situation you show your strength of character and rise above it all by smiling outside and keeping your broken heart deep and insular.
I feel Love and Sadness sometimes go hand in hand. Loosing somebody to the other side breaks and causes us grief to our heart. We can experience days of loss so extreme that it feels as though somebody hitting you repeatedly with a sledge hammer, there are days when you can sit and recollect the excellent laughter of a loved one that you can almost hear them in the room with you these are the bitter sweet days. These are the days you realise that yes only Love is real, yet as much as you know there can be sadness you know that your love for those passed keeps you forever guided and constantly strong.
I hope this sheds a bit of light on those who has been carrying both Love and sadness in their heart and soul. We can get by and I know I have most of my life.
Sharing love is one of the greatest joys in life.
Love and light
Dee
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